Trigger Warning: grooming, trafficking, child exploitation, abuse. Heavy subject matter, no graphic sexual content.
To be honest, I’ve never shared this publicly before.
I’ve been in therapy, in and out of psychiatric hospitals, and I’ve tried to bury it for years. But no matter how much I try to move forward, what happened when I was 13 still lives with me every day.
I’m 20 now. I’ve built a life. But part of me is still that scared, confused 13-year-old girl.
I’m sharing this story to raise awareness. Please hold your loved ones close. The world can be darker than we think.
When I was 13, my parents were separated. I was living with my mom, and we constantly clashed. I would get kicked out frequently and sometimes stayed with my dad, but his mental health was unstable. Home didn’t feel safe anywhere.
One day, after a physical fight with my dad, I ran to a friend’s house to blow off steam. I’ll call her Jenny. She was throwing an open house party that night. I agreed to go — desperate for escape, desperate for a sense of normalcy.
At the time, I was hanging around older teens, 16–18-year-olds. It wasn’t a safe crowd: constant parties, no structure, no school, lots of risky behavior. I thought being with them made me feel grown-up.
At the party, there were around 20–35 people. I was in a bedroom with friends when a tall, dark-haired boy walked in. He was confident, charming, and attractive. My heart skipped a beat. He introduced himself as “Will,” said he was 16 — he was actually 19 — and told me he wanted to go to college for automotive work. We talked all night, and I thought I really got to know him.
After that night, we started spending more time together. Drives. Outings. Trips to the city. I started falling for him. I felt seen for the first time. I felt special.
About six months later, Will introduced me to his “cousin,” who I’ll call Jay. Jay was in his early twenties. At first, he seemed friendly, normal. But he began showing up whenever Will and I were together. He made uncomfortable remarks when Will and I were affectionate. Will didn’t defend me.
I wish I had listened to the warning signs, but I didn’t.
My 14th birthday was coming up. I told Will and Jay I wanted a big party. Jay offered to rent an Airbnb for the celebration. My 13-year-old self was thrilled. I felt like I was being treated like a grown-up, like someone cared about me.
The night before my birthday, we went to the Airbnb for two nights. I started decorating while Will and Jay prepared drinks — a “fruit punch” with alcohol. They handed me a glass and said we might as well pregame before the party.
I had been to parties with them before and didn’t think much of it. But something felt off. When I got to the bottom of the glass, there was a strange taste. I shrugged it off. That was the beginning of my nightmare.
After that, things become hazy. I have PTSD, and some memories are fragmented. But I remember waking up unable to move properly, feeling weak, and realizing something was very wrong. Will was gone. Jay was there.
From that moment, I was trapped. My phone was taken. I was isolated. I was pressured to take drugs and do things I didn’t want to do. Jay threatened me, once even brandishing a gun like it was a toy. I was frozen with fear.
Will told me he “needed money” to pay Jay. He said if he didn’t do this, we would both be hurt. I was 13, terrified, and confused. I believed him. I clung to the idea that he still cared about me.
The cycle of abuse, manipulation, and exploitation continued for months.
I was moved around and sold to other men. I met other girls my age in similar situations. Some didn’t make it out safely. I became close to some, sharing stories, fears, and hopes, but we were all trapped in a cycle we couldn’t escape.
I was constantly threatened. My younger sister was used as leverage. I was beaten, drugged, and reminded that I had no control over my life. These men knew my age — some even paid more because of it.
I felt broken. Dirty. Unworthy. I became a shell of the person I had been before.
At one point, I tried to end my life. I took drugs in an attempt to escape. I survived.
One day, I was told a “client” was coming. Jay dragged me out of bed and told me I had 15 minutes to be ready. Will promised it would be the last time and that we would run away together — a lie. Both men left the hotel and waited in a car down the street.
I waited alone, terrified. Then a tall man approached me and said my full name.
I froze.
He told me I was safe. I didn’t believe him. I screamed and fought, thinking it might be another trap. But when he opened the van door, there were officers and a woman with a laptop. They kept repeating: “You’re safe. We’re the police. We’re taking you to the hospital.”
I broke down crying. I had been waiting for someone to save me for months — years, in a way.
At the hospital, I received medical care and underwent an examination. Law enforcement told me Will and Jay had been arrested for child trafficking and multiple other charges. It turned out there was a larger trafficking ring I had been caught up in.
I had survived something far bigger than myself.
Surviving doesn’t erase trauma. I still live with PTSD. I still struggle with the darkness and grief over my lost childhood.
If you’re a parent: pay attention to who your kids are around. If someone older isolates your child, pressures them, or makes them feel “special” while pulling them from friends and family — it is not love.
If you’re a survivor: it was not your fault.
I was 13. I thought he loved me.
I was just a child.
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